Dienstag, 29. Dezember 2009

Just to be with you...



Lord my life is an empty cup
Here's my heart
Would You fill me up
I'm face to the ground
Forsaking my pride
Leaving my will
My burdens behind



All I want
All I need
Is just to be with You
Here I am
At Your feet
Just to be with You


I have come to the end of me
And there's nothing
I have to bring
But You said I belong
You say I am Yours
Nothing compares
To knowing You more

You made a way for me oh Savior
I'm Yours forevermore


I'm Yours forevermore
All I want
Just to be with You



Paul Baloche and Jason Ingram

Donnerstag, 24. Dezember 2009

Merry Christmas

Just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas!
May God bless you richly!!!!!!

I had a wonderful day! The childrens ministry was so nice and I loved the service...
I had the best dinner ever and I loved to see the faces of my parents when they unpacked the gifts I gave them :) :) :)

But the BEST was that I could celebrate my love and my saviour!

Thank you Jesus!

Sonntag, 20. Dezember 2009

This day was interesting!

Well... How should I start...

This morning I took 2 blankets and a hot-water-bottle and drove to church with our Hands of Hope car (I didn't know at that time how much I would need these items later in the afternoon)...
We had a christmas-party-service in the childrens ministry. The first one was in our different age groups (I have the 7-8 year old) and the second one was in the skate hall... I loved it! It was such a blessing!

Then after a good talk with a friend I wanted to drive home... well...

I started at around 3 p.m. (It was snowing really hard).
Someone from the church told me to drive over the Autobahn (the german highway) because the other way I usually take was full of snow...




When I drove on the Autobahn I realized that my heater wasn't really working because my windows were frozen from the inside!! (Can you imagine how I felt to drive over the highway with frozen windows and the heater didn't work?!)

I drove really slow when I suddenly heard wired noises (no it wasn't the radio:o)) and shortly after that there was a bang - my car slowed down, it started to stink and smoke came out of the cooler... I'm glad I could turn it to the curb...

Do you know what I mean when I say that at first I didn't really know what to do next? ...

Well thank God we have cell phones!

I called my colleague and asked him to pick me up...

I also called my friend Dameria to pray for me and talk with me because I was getting sleepy and felt pretty alone (I didn't want to call my parents because they would freak out) She prayed that God would show me that he was near... and He did...

At around 4:30 p.m. my colleague and his girlfriend came with the Hands of Hope pickup to pick me up :) I'm so blessed to have such friends like Björn, Katharina and Dameria!

You should stop more often and thank God for your heater in your car and for friends you can call anytime! :)

During that 1 hour of waiting the ambulance stopped and asked me if I'm ok and the police thought I'm the accident they were called too... (They were the only once that stopped; they were really friendly...) I never ever have frozen like this in my life... (I'm still freezing under my blanket)

I didn't know why God allowed that to happen... while I was freezing and hoping that nobody would crash into my car (it was really slippery because of all the snow) I was crying out to God "why did it happen?"... I was reminded again that God is in control and that everything works out together for good to those who love God (Romans 8:28)...

Still I'm discouraged that the car is probably broken now (we got this car 2 weeks ago as a gift)... some tube burst or something...
We could bring the car to a gas station 2 minutes away from where it broke down (it broke down 2 minutes from the exit :) ) - There it stands now... all alone... :(

Well "God knows what He is doing"!

He knew that I had to drive to the church and back home but still He let it happen...

I don't know why but I don't need to know why... it's enough that God knows...

Samstag, 19. Dezember 2009

What christmas is all about...

Last Saturday I was so excited that I finally had time to get all my christmas gifts at the mall in Siegen...

But when I came to Siegen I was shocked... People were fighting about parking lots - they were so unfriendly - pushed me and others aside - and at the mall I heard the song "Hosanna in the highest" coming from one store but the next store was playing "Did Jesus really die for me?"...

I stayed 10 minutes and went home - beeing sad...

This is it? Christmas 2009 - everybody stressed out including me?

While I was thinking about it I thought that when Jesus was born it was kind of the same...

Everybody was stressed out because of the population census... people travelled - they were probably mad and sad because they didn't get a room in the hostel they wanted to sleep in - they wanted to get food and some sleep before they had to travell again the next day so that they didn't pay attention to the woman that was pregnant - pregnant with the saviour of the world...

Are we paying attention to what christmas is all about?

I honestly have to say that up to this point I didn't...
I was so stressed out about work and all the christmas gifts I have to get...

I'm thankful that God stopped me that day to remind myself why I can and want to celebrate christmas!

I want to celebrate christmas because my loved one, the one who saved me and gave purpose to my life was born...
My father in heaven "gave up" His son this day for over 30 years because He knew it would save me... Over 30 years that Jesus wasn't sitting at the right hand of the father... Over 30 years of them beeing "separated"...

I decided to celebrate christmas differently this year... its not about me or even my family its about my Jesus... the one who did everything He could to win my heart!




May we stop and take time the next 5 days and realize how much we are blessed!!!!

May you be blessed this christmas in a way you never expected!!!!

Montag, 14. Dezember 2009

Being sick can be a good thing...

When I got up this morning and went to our team meeting at Hands of Hope I felt really sick and I asked to go back to bed... On Mondays I normally have so much to do so I asked myself "Why am I sick again - what about my work..."

But then God reminded me that I should listen to that certain teaching He told me to listen to 2 weeks ago...
Since 2 weeks I tried to sit down and listen to it... 2 weeks of "to much to do" but this morning I had time... :)

If you have any time please listen to the mp3s they are such a blessing!

http://ccmodesto.com/ministries/womensministry/womens_conf_09.php

Its about conquering the giants in our lives...

God is sooooo good... I'm so thankful that I felt so sick because that enabled me to listen to how God wants to conquer the giants in my life...

God is in control!